私は大丈夫ですか？- Am I “Okay” (Is It Fine to Love Yourself First?)?

A: Hi, how are you?
B: I am okay, thank you. I really am okay.

Hey, are you often ask yourself that you really are okay? Are you okay with people around you? Have you ever thought that it is really okay to be you?


Okay, let me tell you first about myself--me who is often to feel this kind of feeling. I am not a girl who can socialize well. Well, I love socializing but I find it hard to start conversation. But once you—try to talk to me—I will always be welcomed, as long as I am comfortable with the topic that we talk about. No, no, I am not picky. I’m just really want to be good enough as the listener, as the partner. You know that you’ll be happy if I can be that kind of person, right? 
 

Well, it’s almost three years that I lived away from my hometown. Here in this city, I found many great and miserable things (lol?). one of them, is friends around me. Just like what I’ve said in the beginning, it’s kinda hard for some people, to talk to me, because I am just like that. Not only that, I 85% guarantee that your first impression about my look are:

•  Not friendly,
• Unhappy,
• “Leave me alone” face
•  And many other things that’s similar hahaha :--)

Oh well, I do really look like that, tho. I am not blaming you! But indeed sometimes I am. Because of that, there are just a really small amount of people who actually talk to me. And trust me, I am happy when they start talking to me—especially if we have the same interest! It’s fun. I can talk for hours with them—with you. And I, really treasure every moments we’ve spent. No, no, I am not being cheesy! I am being honest.

Okay, let’s continue!